Winter Uniform

I can’t believe it’s been over a month since I shared in this space. A month! So, here’s a little life update with me over the past month – the duplex we live in is sold and we’ll probably have to move shortly, but we’re trying to buy a house so the timing sucks, and we are half-assing wedding planning (which really just means we’re preoccupied with house hunting). The combination of all these things has me crazy stressed. The other day I cried the whole way home from work, which actually felt wonderful. I’m not much of a crier, but it felt so good to just let it out. I realized I needed to do something about this overwhelming feeling of everything happening at once.

Don’t get me wrong all these things I listed are amazing things that I’m truly excited to do in my life, it’s just attempting them all at once feels like madness. After my 20 minute commute with puffy bloodshot eyes I parked my car in our driveway and just sat in the front seat thinking, “I’ve really got do something about this. That cry felt good, but seriously, self, you need to get a handle on this big ball of stress, like now or you’re going to go nuts.” My solution was to watch this TED Talk when I finally made it inside to my couch followed by this one, which made me cry more, but in that way where you feel so much relief that you’re not alone in these thoughts and feelings, and that I really need to learn to be more vulnerable (that makes more sense after you watch the first video). My mind felt re-balanced and my perspective shifted to a more positive place of acceptance and awareness of my feelings instead of attempting to hide the mounting stress. This post definitely isn’t supposed to be a pity party for myself. Instead it’s just one gal saying to another that, “Yes, we all get crazy stressed out somethings, even about the good things in our lives and it’s okay. We’re human. Just accept and acknowledge it. Don’t burry it inside because you feel bad or that people might think you’re ungrateful, it only hurts you more.”

During this unexpected leave of absence from my blog, I’ve been brainstorming a lot about what I want to do with this space in 2015, what I want to share more of and less of here. I’ve been really into creating videos for my youtube channel, which I’m really enjoying. It’s aloooot of work and time to create, but I truly love filming, editing and all together creating in this medium. So, if you haven’t already subscribe to my channel go here! I’m trying to find balance between my blog, youtube channel, and social media. With all these changes in my life ahead, I’ve excited to share different content here about buying a house and making over the spaces, our wedding plans and I’d really love to start sharing more about the business side of blogging I’ve learned over the years, as well as some of my advice and tips! So, I’m taking a deep breath and diving back in refreshed and it feels so good.

Coming up in my life in the next few months is more house hunting, a week trip to Dominican Republic with a group of my best friends, and a lot of creating meaningful things to share in this space. Stay tuned! If you want to see what I get up to on a daily basis you can follow me on snapchat (username: kittycotten) and instagram! Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I’m truly grateful for all my readers/subscribers! Thank you!